I feel like everyday mankind is losing more brain cells. Mankind ... what's up?
We live just outside of a small town on a two lane road. There are no sidewalks and the traffic is heavy. The traffic never used to be this bad but developers built subdivisions that surround us. Drivers coming to and fro don't give a damn about the homes or the occupants. As they drum past, charging their engines, there is no care for the walkers or bike riders, children or the elderly. I once believed that the speeding and the noise was the fault of those damn teen agers; I could hear their music, the pound pound of their bass. So one day I decided to sit on the porch and determine who the guilty actually was.
And as the truth paraded by, my heart began to pound and my rage worsened. My ADHD friend would say, "there go the Bastards" and he would laugh. But there is no laughter for me. Those pretty pick-up trucks and Cadillac's, I watch their cigarettes fling out of their moonroof window and think about tire spikes. Doesn't anybody care anymore?
Last night I took my little dog for a walk. As we rounded the corner, a dog bolted out of his yard but was stopped by his electric fence. I fell instantly into a physiological sweat and then an emotional rage. Everything happened so quickly. The dogs seemed determined and I could never tell if the opposing dog would break his barrier. I kept walking, trying to calm down my pet and breathe and then I saw the owner. He was an older man way up in his driveway leaning against the garage. Well dressed and carrying a cane I could do nothing but swear at him for his disregard for pedestrians happing by. Still pissed I gave him a piece of my mind. Too many, what my mother would consider, filthy words, slipped out of my mouth as I kept going. Just when I thought I couldn't get any hotter he assured me that the experience didn't kill me.
His apology would have been great. Doesn't anybody care anymore?
I wonder, is this the hypersensitivity of Bipolar that affects the life I live? Probably none of this would bother my husband ... Bastard.
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