Moving into a direction of the unknown. Medication changes begin to change my chemistry again. Switch em up every 9 years and rattle the cage. Can't take the anti-psychotics for too long. Side effects, hair falling out, thinning, turning yellow, tics, tremors, dulled thinking, confusion ... I forgot the rest.
Can't sleep. Spinning is energy, much more than in depression. I don't know where this is going. How far. I'm listening to Eminem on iTunes over and over again. Same song. "Love the Way You Lie" is hypnotic. (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uelHwf8o7_U) The song seems like a replication of the years of my life only bring it down to the 50's. Cut out the explicit swearing, add in God damns and some physical abuse. Humiliation, parental favorites - secrets between the players. And the anger remains. It's a love hate. Pushing and knocking down. Little kids see and feel the conflict and turmoil, the pain. After all of this will they ever be the same ...
Can't sleep. Spinning is energy, much more than in depression. I don't know where this is going. How far. I'm listening to Eminem on iTunes over and over again. Same song. "Love the Way You Lie" is hypnotic. (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uelHwf8o7_U) The song seems like a replication of the years of my life only bring it down to the 50's. Cut out the explicit swearing, add in God damns and some physical abuse. Humiliation, parental favorites - secrets between the players. And the anger remains. It's a love hate. Pushing and knocking down. Little kids see and feel the conflict and turmoil, the pain. After all of this will they ever be the same ...
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