The importance of forgiveness cannot be understated. The following is a letter I sent to a young man struggling with the forces of good and evil:
Dear Chris:
I want to commend you on your strength to write on you blog BEING BIPOLAR, Part 5: God and Mental Illness. Thank you.
Is the Knight Shift defending the faith? through His armor?
I share with you the spectrum illness Bipolar but not the physical violations you encountered.
Please consider the following for thought and complementation. Forgiveness is about you and the heart of you.
The horrid violation upon you created wounds Chris and it is because of these wounds that forgiveness cannot be met. Though we resist reconciliation (fence-mending), God promises to replace your "stoney" heart with one of flesh. Eze 36:26 NIV). A heart of stone is a defensive wall we build around our hearts. A heart of stone prevents us from opening our spirit to be vulnerable because it hurts too much. Our hearts of stone worsen with each wound but each wound can be healed by the glory light of Jesus (re: http://www.expectedendministries. com)
I have written a book on my bipolar disorder, the violations of my family mentally and on spirit and soul. But after full conversion, this is what works for me. I surrender (verbally) to our Savior many times a day. Doing this takes me out of the pain of our relationships and reminds me that without a detachment from this world (dead to self) I cannot be of Him. Scripture says in John 15:19: "If you belonged to the world, it would love you as its own. As it is, you do not belong to the world, but I have chosen you out of the world. That is why the world hates you."
I have been taught that repentance is most important for our salvation. Recognizing the ill in others is a knee jerk reaction to our pain. I know when my thoughts are on the vein of Jesus they are kind and thoughtful. Any others, not so. When I repent I ask for strength to have forgiveness. I begin with a prayer that our God will show me how to forgive myself and expose to me the wounds of my heart. I ask for the courage to forgive others. We are all made up of wounds and it is because of this that the evil attaches to us. It is not by accident that evil occurs 613 times in the KJV of the Bible. Evil manifests itself on the believer by violating his thoughts. In many ways evil keeps us from the truth of God by tearing into our wounds. As you described so well, you were taken by the Spirit of rebellion for many years after this terrible invasion that was destined to destroy you. Your spirit however was strong enough to eventually overcome some of your experience however you cannot be a little pregnant.
Remember Chris, each time you let evil violate you, you are being violated by that man over and over again. There is no distinction between the acts of violation when it is in the spirit. It is all bad. And of course, that is the principal location of the pain.
I will pray for you Chris. I pray that you will come to know the truth of forgiveness which will bring to you to a joy of God you cannot receive anywhere else. There is an opportunity for healing for that man and for yourself through intercessory repentance and intercessory prayer. Intercessory repentance IR provides a powerful way of ministering those who cannot be reached in any other way. It avoids confrontation on a human level, but is a very powerful way to confront the enemy on a spiritual level. Though IR is not possible unless there is a true forgiveness in our own hearts. Remember Chris, the Lord took this burden from you with the spilling of his blood on Calvary. Letting go is most difficult but if you are obedient, the act of forgiving grace will release you from the inner turmoil that influences. http://www.sw-mins.org/Intercessory%20Repentance.htm.
Coming to Jesus has taken me out of the past, out of the pain and out of the darkness of my first book.
There is freedom in surrender Chris, I tell you the truth
In His Name,
Cynthia M. Sabotka
Open Spaces Ministry
http://www.LifeIsLikeALine.com
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